being human is just so human

you know when you get to that point where you can swear you're over it. you've moved on and its completely obvious in everyone's eyes and your own, but i just want this blood boiling experience to stop. you know what i mean? i hate knowing the fact that someone could get under my skin in that way. and i keep trying to fight it but being so human can be so annoying sometimes. i'm in love with this person. this brand new person that gives me life and i keep having the death of my past tap me on my shoulder and it just makes my blood boil. i want to be done. i want to be done so bad. but how long does it take to get past this hurt and truly let go. i'm trying to hold on. i promise i'm not. i want to move on with this new man in my life but i don't know how i can do that if my blood keeps boiling. not even like i want it to. it just does. it just really does. there isn't a concrete answer and i'm not sure i'mr eally looking for one. i just want to let go and live with this new found love. knowing someone can get under my skin in that way is just so frustruating. but you know what love is love, and i need to see that now i can give me love to someone and move on past that and just let it got. LET IT GO LET IT GO LET IT GO LET IT GO!!!!