I feel this ever intense need jerk reaction with ever slip or move. almost like i'm waiting for everything to go wrong at any moment.i don't want to feel like my world is crashing but it is. and i haven't had time to deal with it so i haven't had time to try and make myself feel better or to even fix this feeling. and now i feel like its just all crashing down and its burning inside of me like a fire that wants to kill everything in its path. and i can't help but feel like its soon to go swirling out of control.
they say death is attached to us and we can't escape it but only accept it. and i'm wondering why love just can't be enough. even though i know it only pushes further into that attachment. this is just something i have to do and this has to be something i just let go of for now because i can't do this someone. i have to do this on my own. its the only way i'm going to be able to fix me. me. me. me.
and i need to be fixed.
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