caught inbetween

he's says its obvious that something has changed. there is something that has changed but i don't know what that could be and i know i have to ask to find out and i don't mind taking that step but its got to be osmething different when crossing the line of friends means you grabbing my face and kissing me like you've been meaning to the whole time. my mind wants to love you. but my heart says it just can't. i'm stuck inbetween you and i don't know where to go next. the rational side says going with the flow might be where i find my soul. but am i ready for you to burn me again? and is it rational to believe that you're always going to hurt me in the end? i want to be yours in such a complete way but find myself holding back even when you're trying to embrace me. i want you to hold me till i can't feel the heat anymore. but it never seems to go away when i keep trying. i keep trying. and i'm going no where. and i'm wondering if you're going to be there when i get there because if this was the good timing would you still want me? would you want me the way i wish you would? everyone keep saying they don't understand what bad timing means and i'm starting to not get it that much either. what if i was your soulmate? and you just let me go? because i'm starting to feel like i'm letting go.