you

from beginning to end i keep thinking it is you. and all this is you. i'm trapped in an idea of everything we could be and i want to write i have so much to write but i don't know where to begin and i'm starting to realize with all this tragedy comes something i can grow from. so i'm trying to stop asking myself what have you dont for me lately and trying to get down to the point where it just doesn't matter anyways. so take me. stop messing around and just take me. you know we are great but you just won't take me and i can't wait here all day. i don't want to be the one singing those lyrics that its been a year and i'm still not your officialy girl. so stop messing with my heart and show me where to go from here. i'm not ready to go back and forth trying to find the ends to your side of the rope. so lets stop pretending and show me what it means to hear the truth from you. i'll drop this like its hot but i'm still going to find yuo in the background holding on to me like i left bread crumbs for you. i'm losing sight of where this all began and i'm ready to look away like i never knew you were there but something has me holding on to you because how can you deny finding what you've been looking for, for the very first time? it spooks me like i'm running from the light and you see it and i'm hoping it doesn't encourage bad behavior but there is only so much i can keep myself from realizing and i'm letting it all go now so now its your turn cuz i won't be standing here for long and i don't want to be int hat situation when someone else finally comes who wants to take me there and you finally tell me you're ready