It won't mean a thing to me. I've been doing this too long. If you try to play it low ain't nobody going to care enough. So don't make me make you fall in love with someone like me.
You wanted to warn me but I was always the one that needed to warn you.
He told me without telling me like he was going to hurt me. Like he was going to break me to pieces if he did. But he wouldn't have. Because it's all in e past now and I really don't care anymore. None of it matters to me anymore. I don't love you anymore and it feels more real now than it ever did before. And it's okay. I assumed you would. I assumed it had been long enough for you too. Especially since it was always me you just couldn't be with. And at the end of the day, it never had anything to do with me. And now I'm gone.
We sat there talking and eating and I started realizing we had much more in common than I actually thought we would. Two days later I didn't expect to hear from you but I did. W walked throu the door and it was definitely not what I was expecting. But there was something about seeing you again that had me realizing I wanted to see you but didnt need anymore than that. She was leaving and I was dead set on leaving with her until I saw that look in your eyes and she told me I needed to stay. The way our bodies moved together when we danced had me wanting much more than I would have if I had left. And when we walked out the door i could smell the dawn like it had been waiting for us to come out of hiding. We walked up the marathon of steps to your front door and I remember feeling a sudden urge of anxiety and nervousness.
When we sat there I saw that look on your face and as you carried me to the room I couldn't help but feel totally relaxed. And then there was all of it. From the heat to the skin to the 8 pack I could feel on my finger tips to the sweat to the chills to the complete chemistry of it all. I left not knowing exactly what had happened like it was all some cast fantasy dream.
Sleeping till the next night to wake up dazed. He invited me out to drinks but I could only think of the nit I had with you. Well the early morning. He wanted me the way he did years ago and I couldn't do anything but walk away from him like i was still his friend back then. He doesn't want to know nothing has changed so I leave it alone like it hasn't.
I went to make something of myself and did. Probably e biggest opportunity in my career this far. And I'm only hoping something amazing comes from it. But I won't let my hopes get too far ahead of me and just try my best.
I went to see you free and I remember how surprised I w to see you walking up the other side of the street to meet me in the middle. Hours went by and walking, talking, eating, drinking, playing video games, movies, and music later, we found ourselves completely wrapped and intertwined yet again. It went by like a hot scene in a movie with the right music playing as our soundtrack. I didn't want it to stop and it didn't until we totally passed out. But I was satisfied feeling the heat of your body next to mine. Waking up to you kissing me was perfect. And I could've laid there next to you all day. Bt the I had to leave.
And yet I still don't want anything more than exatly what this is right now. Broken hearts a he'll of a fickle thing to get passed.and I only hope it makes the right choices for me in the long run. Because I'll be damned if I do to anyone what he did to me. Where he ever knows the severity of it doesn't even matter because it will never matter to him.
Now I'm enjoying the satisfaction in his touch. So touch me again and make it start all over again.
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