chasing pavements

all is fair in love and war and this is a revolution.
-fred astaire

I can't help but think how positively accurate that is. i have all these words in my head from she said she said he said he said she said she said, and i all i can think of now is that i just don't care to listen anymore. i just don't care to find out what everyone else has to say or what everyone else has to think about the situation because the only things it leads to is unhappiness when i was happy being naive and although heartbreak could be in the distance or near future, at least i was happy while i was on my way there. i don't want to live this life thinking that there has to be some significant person there for me because every time i start to think i could be amazed i only seem to be disappointed. i have yet to find someone that truly amazes me and someone who can keep up with who i am. and although i might hold on to the idea that a psyche eros kind of love is out there for me somewhere, i would just rather live my life hoping to find someone who not only loves me but understands me and gets who i am. i know that can be unreasonable and i know that can be unheard of for me but i'm willing to find out if i could be proven wrong or right. and whether it be you or the next one that tries for my affections. at least i can say i lived and experienced a life where all is truly fair in love and war and it was indeed a revolution for my heart.