if i ever needed to know what it felt like to have my heart break. it was today.

I feel at such a loss and its almost driving me crazy. i'm trying to keep my head above water but its hard when i had to watch him suffer in front of my eyes knowing no one was going to help me. i'm still crying and haven't been able to stop all day and now i have to live with what happened and the exhaustion i went through and i can't get his face out of mind and i swear i see it every where. and no one understands and its not going to help when my mother is adding fire to this flame. miserable never felt more worse than this. and i'm helpless for him all my strengths mean nothing here. and my heart keeps breaking for him and i can't get his smell off of me. it almost feels like someone is playing some horrible prank on me to see if they can get a spark of feeling from me but i can't move right now i just want to curl up and pray it never happened.

i'm over trying to be friends with vindictive little girls and that's all i have to say about that.

i'm done wasting my time on little boys who thing they are men. and that's all i have to say about that.