Round and round

I keep looking for all the right things in all the wrong places.

I've found myself again in the same situation of wanting what I can't have and not being able to let myself just get out while I still can. I don't know why I try for things. It's like I'm too stubborn to think that there is someone out there that doesn't want to be with me if I could just show him how happy I would make him. So now all I can o is just let it all go. This time I have to. I can't keep letting myself fall down this same downward spiral. For the sake of my forsaken heart

I want my career more than anything and that seems to be somewhat looking up, so I need to just let go of this constant need to be wanted. It's done and it's over. It's not happening for me and it makes me look past all the other amazing pieces of my life right now. Especially for someone who isn't even on my level and who isn't even trying to be. Good bye to all my childish fairytale dreams.