Bated on the moments

If will you have me I'll make you happy Need someone to whom I can belong Here's my confession Saving it special Hoped it would be you all along All along

I freaked out. I don't know why. I started losing my sense of control. I was freaking out and nothing was happening and i wish i could explain it. I realized I have to sto talking to you about these things. I need to be more mature in my reactions. I need to stop letting the fear take over like its more imporant that your love. It never was.
I'm going to make some changes. I can start with my baby steps and I have. But I need to be able to ask you for help. I'm going to need to be able to know I can trust you. My heart knows what it wants. i want you. and somewhere deep in your heart i'm there. because you know you want me. No matter how cocky that might sound its the truth. its there in you and I keep pushing you back further aways from me. But that all stops now.
Not to say that its going to stop immediately, but to say that I'm going to work on making it stop completely. Becuase I don't want to lose you. You are my best friend. You are there for me. And i need to start treating you as such. You are not the bade of my emotional existance in this relationship. I need to let all of that go. My fear and insecurities got so much bigger than me. Because emotions are not easy for me. From all the past pain. But i'm working on that. and i'm going to continue to go throught his healing process.
for you i'm just going to be me. i'm going to love you with all i have to give and be the woman you fell in love with. I'm going ot get out of my head and just be us. just love you unconditionally. and let that just be that. because that's all i can do and hope that love is enough.