breakdown in transit

You know when you've hit that moment of no return? when you've made a decision that puts that pain in your chest like an elephant is sitting on top of you? well I have just entered that zone where all the thoughts i have in my head are telling me i made the right decision but my heart is finally telling me i'm in love when its too late and i just can't go back. my heart is aching but i can't seem to see what else i could have done. it comes in waves where i feel like i've lost my best friend. but what else was i suppose to do? if he was me. if the roles were reverse i don't see how he would do anything different. If you found the person you were almost certain was your soulmate but knew that they just didn't want to be with you. would you stay? would you stay their friend knowing every time you talked every time you spent with each other was just more validation that you were almost made for each. that you just fit like a puzzle piece, always knowing that that person just didn't want you. would you really stay? i just couldn't bring myself to keep feeling this way for someone who just couldn't see themselves with me. i had to let it go. it might not have been fair and it might have been the fairest way to go about it, but it had to be done. i don't know what else i was suppose to do. i can't be riends when at the end of the day it hurts to know that he just can't feel the same way i feel about him. I almost wanted to shake him and scream "can't you see we're perfect for each other" and "why can't you just love me back damnit" but there's no forcing a feeling that's not there. and i wasn't trying to give him an ultimatum. or force him to choose. because in the end someone would get hurt and this way even though we're both hurting. I can try and get over this. I can distract myself with other things. even if my heart still hurts for him. because he was my best friend. and i did lose him that night. the worst part is the pain but i still feel like i made the right decision because it was the only option i had. and it hurts me to know if he's hurting about it too but i just don't know what else i'm suppose to do when i feelings for someone who just doesn't feel the same way for me.