i don't get bitter i get better

There's that moment when it comes over you like a wave. its like a wave hitting you and you can't seem to shake the pain it gives your entire body and you want to give up. you really do. but deep down there's something that tells you that its almost impossible. you keep thinking its almost impossible. because you always thought that this person was going to be one to tell you that you were always the one the whole time and although they tried to hide there was no resisting the inevitable. i took a chance in human emotion and again i say being human is just so human sometimes. i almost forgot what it was like to hurt this bad and yes i can't be the hypocrite. this is all apart of the falling, because around the corner is another person to pick me back up again. and i cant keep thinking that this was just it and i'm forever going to be alone because why wouldn't he want me. why didn't he want? why didn't he want me? why couldn't he want me? and although it screams with rejection. rejection is only a lesson that constantly needs to be learn for the concept of value. and i can't let myself fall into thinking i'm too superior for rejection because lets face it? i find it more than i really wish i would. i might have lost another one to the winter time, but after winter comes spring. and although you broke my heart. and i'm not going to deny you did. i'll get over this like i get over everything else. because although this is pain. i've done pain before. and its nothing i can't get over. and if you ever decide or realize i really was your perfect fit. i can only wish you the best in what you do and hope everything works out for you. because i refuse to let myself think bad thoughts about you. but once i'm done there's no looking back. ever. so good night and good luck. and i honestly hope all your dreams come true. but now i'm hoping none of them have anything to do with me.