falling hard

so my new life is pretty peaceful I have to say. Although I left home with some drama, I came to a whole new beginning here that for the most part has been very nurturing, exciting, and pretty damn peaceful and calm. I set myself out to handle the responsibilities that I have. and with my luck I was able to find a job, and a good one at that, within 3 days of living here. I would say that's pretty good only going into the city for one day looking for work. I really had left that morning thinking I wasn't going to get anything but I ended up finding a job tat suits me very well. It was pretty shocking but I was very determined and i'm still very determined to get more things done. this is only the beginning of course.

as for everything else that might come along with it, well i guess i'll find out about those things when they do. As for now, i really just want to take care of myself. I'm not looking for anything more than that. I don't want to be in a relationship right now or involved. I learned some valuable lessons in the last 6 months and I just don't believe in a relationship right now. maybe some day just not today. or in the near future. I'm just happy I've been blessed with so many positive aspects of this place and my life right now. It only further makes me believe that this was the right choice for me and that my life here will be something i always wanted.

she told me she believes that i will find someone one day that will ask me that one question and i will say yes and i will be married one of these days. she knows me better than i know myself so i'm sure she's right but i've been so discouraged on that outlook lately that i just don't see a point in it. but maybe some day. as for now though i'll just keep moving forward with my plans for myself and see where that takes me. another day another adventure in this city.