He told her. She warned me he would but I wanted to give him the benefit of the doubt. She was right. I know it was bad and I shouldn't have but I can't take back what I did or the mind set I was in when it happened. A person full of heartbreak will do stupid things sometimes. I don't want to make excuses for it either. I just don't think its fair im the one that has to lose the friendship when he's the one that made the first move but he still gets to keep the friendship. it takes 2 to tango and if there has to be a consequence I think both parties should pay the price. But I guess not in this situation. I can say im sorry till my face turns blue and I will. I just hope it turns things around.
Tonight is my last night living in California. It pretty much sucked as a day as a whole. Im more than ready to leave now because of it but there are my friends im going to miss. I just feel like I really need to get out of here right now. There's too much of my broken heart here and I can't take it anymore. Im not running away from it I just think its better I leave it behind.
I wish you would've talked to me. He said he knew I wanted you to. He asked me why and I still don't know. I don't get it. I don't understand why I still love you. And I keep wishing it would stop. Im hoping that stays here too. Because I wont ever see you again when I get on that plane.
"And I thought you were the sweetest kill."
Good bye to my forever love, California. I'll keep you forever. But we both know this was something I had to do.
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