And then I found myself

There are points like these that I come across and I listen to sad music and I feel like every ounce of feelings have left my body. I can feel down on myself and I can feel so hopeless. When my day started I could have gotten wrapped up in all of that. It took 2 phone calls today to change that all around. I always feels like she hears when I need her. She called me at the right time to remind me I'm stronger than this. And she let me feel a sense of compassion I just hadn't let myself see prior to this point.

He can't be with me if he can even be with himself and that's something I should know about. Not because I relate but because it s a piece of advice I've given so many people. I miss him, but there isn't anything I can do to save him. Maybe he'll regret this. Maybe this will hurt him and maybe he'll realize how much I mean to him. But maybe won't repair my heart right now