Better

I want to be better. I want to be better all the time. I'm a difficult person. Full of complications. My life sometimes spirals so far from my reach. I've put you through a lot by now I know and you've done well to keep a level head and put me in my place. But sometimes I feel like I have to work so hard for your love. I'm happy to do it as long as there is reciprocation. I know the type of person you are the kind of relationship I was getting myself into. Loving you has always been an honest feeling for me. But loving me still feels so foreign. There are these times when you say things that really hurt and I can't help but feel hurt about it. She says I need to learn how to let those things go. And I know that but it gets hard to do sometimes when it hurts in the way it does.mand I know I guilt trip, but there's a side of me that wants you to know how I'm feeling. I get frustrated with the things around me. Especially lately.