feelings and emotions

its hard trying to figure out where you stand on things and trying to figure out yourself and how you feel for that matter, when you have the emotional capacity of a pregnant woman with too many hormones. i know the first year is the hardest and going through all the emotions again is normal. but this losing sleep is driving me crazy and making me angry at everything else and when the anger subsides all thats left is sadness. she says it comes in waves and if i could do this once i can do it again. i hope so cuz these waves are drowning.