till i collapse

You did it yet again. And I shouldn't be surprised and im not just disappointed. She said you're never going to be that guy. And you're never going to give me the apology I want. He said one day we would have a topical relationship. And now I realize I don't want one at all like I haven't for the last 6 months. To deny what you said and act like you did nothing wrong so you wouldn't have to show face is just so sad.

You turn around and yell at me like I did something wrong but you were the one that told me to my face that I didn't matter to you and you didn't care. To deny that now and say" if sorry is what you want then im sorry." What the hell is that? Cause I can tell you right now that's no apology.

But there are 3000 miles between us now and I don't need to see or speak to you ever again if I don't want to and im perfectly okay with that. Especially now. So im giving you what you've asked for and don't worry about hearing from me again. I don't care anymore about what you say or do because im moving past you. Its sad because all I kept thinking was" why doesn't my father want me? Why can't he try for me?" And I realized that's why I end up dating the guys that I do. And now I just want to stay away. And find peace here on the other side.

Because I will not collapse anymore because of you or anyone like you.

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