Heartbreak hotel

Laying here listening to you tell me you fell in love back then. You still think about me now. You want me to come and be where you are. And I want to run so far away. Being thousands of miles away. And there is a feeling that has left my bones.

I'm laying in a bed in puerto rico and I wish I didn't have to leave. I want to lay here forever and forget all these memories. You texted and said happy birthday and j almost hoped you had forgot. I realized I'm still angry and hurt because I know you don't care. J don't even want to tell you details because in too afraid to let you in. And you still don't get it and you still don't care.

I had moments this week I almost forgot we're possible. Complete relaxation and happiness because I was so far from everything and everyone and so at peace with myself after everything. After all of this. I got what j wanted in my birthday and I found it on a beach in San Juan.

I wish I could find a wag to bring that feeling back. But it's left me here and it doesn't seem like its coming back. So I'll keep the peace I found in me and let go of the idea it might come back to me.

Peace is finding a warmth in the moments I'll never forget.