the epic true love way

I'm always wondering if its really possible to have this epic love story like eros and psyche. i mean i've seen real life epic love stories like my grandparents so i completely understand that they are feasible. i'm just wondering if its tangible for me. and if it is then when will i know its started? will i just know? because now when i kiss him i feel something. it wasn't there before but now it is. its like a chill i get in the pit of my stomach. and when it was us, together, i felt it all over. i almost lost myself in it. and it sounds so drastic and almost dramatic, but i don't know how else to explain it. this is so much more than tanything else before and it scares the hell out of me. because i'm laying there out of breath freaking out in my head that this is going to be it. this is going to be like the other times when this happens and i never hear from him again. even the next day my mind is still hoping i'm wrong. that this time is really different and that he cares enough about me to be different now than before. i'm scared because there's a lot more heartbreak at stake now than there ever was before. and having finally found someone i've connected with more than anyone else just makes it so dangerous. and i know i'm not his yet officially i guess and he's not mine but we are. we are. and its bullshit to say we're not. there might not be a label but it has to be real, right?....right? I guess all i'm trying to say is that, when he hears certain songs, i'm really hoping he's thinking of me. that's the best and only way i can really put it for now.