want you to wanna be where i am

they say you never change. there's no possibility for change. i'm wondering why its so bad to think that maybe after 2 months without me you've finally seen that i really do mean something. enough to want me. even if i really don't think its enough for you to want to be with me yet. i know its enough to know that you see i really do mean something in your life. i miss you too. i miss you so much but its not enough to respond to a text. missing you and loving you isn't enough anymore to respond to you. because i realize that you didn't do enough for me towards the end for it to be enough. the ball is completely in your court now and until i can see. really see. that this is enough missing you and loving you isn't going to be enough to change the way you feel. and i know that now. i still have hope that things could be different i'm not completely in the thought that you're never going to change. the crazy thing is i thought this really broke me. but it never did. i still want things to be you and me. i could be completely wrong in having hopes but i guess i'll find that out eventually. but knowing that you miss me too. well it just makes me wonder. honestly i wanted to respond so bad. i wanted to say "doesn't that show you something? can't you see that it means something if it sucks that i'm not around?" but i can't. i just can't respond. and only hope that you realize i miss you too, but because i've always known why it sucks that you aren't around.