when lightning strikes twice

IT's this rare occasion that we can choice to see as a chance that just happened or actually take it for a second opportunity to make things different.



she called and asked, "how are you feeling?" she had no idea what had happened and all i could tell her was, "i have no idea what i'm doing. why am i doing this?" and like she does she shattered me whole and said, "because you know there is something worth fighting for." i wanted to be so angry and i know in the beginning i really was because i didn't know what why i had gotten back to this place with you. i wanted to give up get up and just walk away without even saying good bye. but that's not how i do things and once i saw you shut off the way you do, yah it brought me to tears because i realized it. i realize that here you are afraid to jump off the plane wiht me but i'm sitting there having to talk you off some kind of cliff because you're scared. like a horse that gets spooked easily. there was pressure and i can see that but is it worth losing me? you are so scared of saying good bye but you're saying good bye anyways. and that's what had me so upset that's what had me so mad at you because i know the uncertainty is scary and can bring about a fear that's got you convincing yourself of things that aren't even real. and i'm sitting there trying to bring you back to reality. that i'm here and i'm not going to hurt you, and there's no reason to be afraid of me. i'm not anyone else to be compared to. i'm me. and you know that. i wish there was some way i could just make all your fears go away, and sometimes i think i can when i talk you down from that cliff of false pretenses.

i care. i care about you, and you might have fallen out of love with me but i never feel out of love with you. and i'm here because of that. i'm here because i don't see a good enough reason to give up on us. i see soemthing worth fighting for. because when we're around each other and we just talk and let the feelings just flow everything just feels so right. everything feels happy. and i'm happy. and i hope you feel the same all the time. i hope you feel like i'm the best friend you've been wanting. i want you to want me. i'm never trying to be your everything, but just your somebody. that somebody that you look for when you need someone to talk to you, when you need someone to lean on, when you need to know someone cares about you. because i've always cared about you. and i'm always trying to be here for you. and i keep thinking you're going to see me. i just hope i'm right and i just hope you stay true to your expectations. don't make yourself out to be a liar. because i know somewhere inside of you, you care.