never say never

"if you don't know, then you don't care, and i show up but you're not there, but i'm waiting and you want to, still afraid that i will desert you."

she keeps telling me i'm going to know when to say when but that she can tell i'm getting restless again. she asked me if i would be able to wait a year to be with him. i said no. she said "i didn't think so." i told her i just need a reason to keep holding on and right now i don't even think i have that. i'm holding on to whatever strings i can grab onto and its getting really hard to find any right now. i feel like they're all slipping through my fingers. i know nothing lasts forever. but i was always told never to say never.