because there is no sweeter thing

"i just want to satisfy ya though you're not mine i can't deny you don't you hear me talkin baby? love me now or i'll go crazy"

I bgein things off with being excited to be where i am and the way things are. and i put myself out there without trying at all because really i just don't care anymore. i really don't. but i'm out and about and doing what i got to do. and i'm living an exciting life and some wish they could do all the time, and yet i sit around wondering if things could be different. wondering why i meet completely normal and attractive people who want a part of me. who want to get to know me. who want to share something with me. and all i can do is look at them and feel so numb. like i want nothing from them in return because they aren't what i want. and so badly i want to get over that. i want to be able to open myself up to new people and just dive in head first but all i find myself doing is wanting them to be someone else and although i'm doing my best to move past all that. i still can't help wanting particular qualities and i can't say that's selfish because everyone is looking at particular characteristics they find appealing. i happened to find mine i'm just trying to find it in someone else. for legitimate reasons, but still. i think sooner than later i'm going to let it all go. and i'm going to let go what i feel now. but its just so hard, but plausible. it might be tough, but tangible. so i can only try because when it was someone i wanted to be with it was you and since i can't i can only let go because love just wasn't enough. there is nothing wrong with that i just got to find where love is enough and find someone who gets to know me and can't see themselves loving anyone else. lets make dreams come true