cross my mind

i'm in awe of things i don't understand. because now i'm starting to see that when we started all over. we really started all over. things are different this time around and i'm hoping i'm not the only one that sees that but i'm sure i'm not. i know you see me. i know you feel me.

so lets just say this because i need to say it:

"i'm afraid. definitely scared because i haven't felt this way about anyone ever. not even the ones i thought meant something to me. this is a first for me, and i know you've had complicated. and i know complicated seems to follow you making you not ready for something like me. and i get that. but i'm just hoping that it doesn't take you too long. that it doesn't take years to see that everything real has been in front of you the whole time. because this. this that i feel is so real. and i'm hoping that deep down somewhere you feel it too. because when you decide that you don't want to lose me, i'm going to show you everything you've ever wanted. because there is no denying the connection, and although we might hold back, that can only last so long before we both crack. so i will keep hoping as long as you tell me, you feel the same."