i came to win, i came to fly

"I am not a girl that can ever be defined"

Yesterday my very first article went on our website. I couldn't believe it. I walked into work and my editor-in-chief looked at me and said, "Have you ever done a first impressions?" I thought he was asking me if i've ever edited one and put it online. which i have so i told him yes. then he hands me a cd and i realize he wants me to write one. he kind of goes over it with me really quick but just tells me not to take myself seriously, listen to the cd, and just write the review. So that's exactly what I did. and it was incredible later that day to see my name there. on my own review. and the fact that its the first piece i get to add to my own portfolio. but then today happened...

we got the new issues of the magazine and i opened it up to see my name! i swear i almost started crying. then my editor-in-chief said, "feels good to see your name in the masthead doesn't it?" i just shook my head yes and they all congratulated me. and i got to take 2 issues home but i'm saving them to give to my grandmother and aunt. i want to actually go to the bookstore and buy it when it comes out march 6th. so if you're reading this please go to your bookstore and pick up FILTER magazine! thanks! haha

When she called me today and i got to tell her she screamed on the phone. It's nice to know i've always had her support and hse knows how hard i've had to work to get there. she's really the only person that knows ALL of it. no one else does. not even the people that like to believe they do. there's plenty that i kept just between us. she was so excited for me and then went on to tell me that we're going to thailand this summer. I was telling her about spain but i guess she changed my mind with thailand and hopefully maybe tokyo. i don't care cause i just want to lay out at that thailand beach house! yes please!

They took me out last night and we celebrated my review. it was a lot of fun with great food and really good drinks. he introduced me to his friend who was crazy tall. he came over and sat next to me talking about how he happened to be in the print industry as well but his magazine is really successful and i was really surprised but at the end of the night i was more concerned with celebrating and having a good times with my friends. tonight is another night with them and so is tomorrow. but tomorrow has the opportunity to be something incredible and i can't wait.

i went to the gym after work and i'm realizing just what i want from myself. i'm setting up my goals and accomplishing things i've always wanted for myself day by day. but i want something big to come my way. i've been hoping for something bigger and i'm putting in the work to make that happen. something is going to come that is going to change my world into something completely amazing and i'm ready for it. i'm ready to fly farther than i ever could without anything holding me back. i deserve better and i'm going to find it. i work hard so much for everything in my life and i'm going to make things happen. big things.


sometimes i wish i still had you around to talk to. sometimes i wonder if you feel the same way. i guess wishing and wondering isn't going to get me anywhere. let go let go let go. is a lot harder said than done.